Pulling the Plug on Project Enlightenment - Page 2
But I found Project Enlightenment.
It started with a call to the hotline. I was in tears, angry, frustrated. I needed the tantrum to stop. Just stop. I felt my resolve shake. I. Just. Couldn't. Stand. It. Anymore. The shrieking. The crying. The kicking. The hitting. Strewn books and upturned toy boxes. Covers ripped off the bed. Doors slammed. I made the first call for help after I slapped my son.
I have written details of that experience here, and I hope you take a moment to read it. That post was the first I ever spoke of the incident. I've held that regret and sorrow in my heart all these years. It will live in me forever. I just can't shake it. And it never happened again. Project Enlightenment saved our family. It repaired my relationship with my son. And now Project Enlightenment is gone. Not from fire or vandalism or natural disaster.
The new Wake County School Board ripped away its funding. All family counselors have been cut. This means no more hotline for parents in crisis. No more family counseling. No more parenting classes. No more early childhood screening. No more support for moms like me who need help. No more therapy for children like Bird who needed someone to speak his language. The cuts were drastic and immediate. Families were left hanging in the middle of their counseling sessions. Counselor voicemails simply state that they are no longer employed by Wake County. It was a swift cut, made with nary a thought to the families, and children, facing crisis of all kinds.
And now we sit four year after Bird's initial tantrums. He's a smart first grader with a penchant for numbers and words. He has an uncanny ability to keep a beat. He has a great natural tennis swing. And he smothers our dog with affection. My son has turned into a lovely child, and the place he holds in my heart is a bit tattered but no worse for the wear. The battle scars we sport have made us stronger, and we speak the same language now. We've healed, thanks to Project Enlightenment. It's regrettable that so many families won't have the same happy ending.
An original Deep South Moms blog post.
Ilina blogs at Dirt & Noise, home of the weekly 5:00 Fridays cocktail. She stays sane by cooking up a storm, indulging in Gossip Girl, and enjoying LEGO therapy with her sons.