Do you really need clean underwear this week?
After the birth of my third son fifteen months ago, I developed postpartum depression. I have since recovered through means of therapy, medication and support from family, friends, and writing. Every once in a while I fall into a slump and automatically assume the depression is back. I was told that with postpartum depression, some women never truly get over it and remain on medication for life. Place a mental check-mark on the list of "Things you were never told would happen after having a child"!
I've been in a slump as of late. My husband is a stay at home dad by day and attends school at night, except for the Summer months. While at home, he cares for our fifteen-month-old and has since I returned to work from maternity leave. By the end of this week, school is out for the Summer for both of our older children. This means that morning after morning, I have to prepare myself for the day ahead and venture out for the ride to work, alone. Each morning at 7:15am, I will have to close and lock the door where all of my loved ones will remain snuggled in their beds while I go off to the office for the day.
It kills me. Is it depression or severe jealousy? It's not like the kids are being dropped off at a daycare center or Summer Camp (I'm sure my husband would welcome a part-time break). They are at home with their father! He is really good at the stay at home dad gig even though it's not his forte.
I had the opportunity when our middle son was in kindergarten, to stay home for a year. I loved being a stay at home mom. I collected unemployment, which meant a huge decrease in pay but we made it work. All meals were eaten at home and we were very frugal. But now I know what I'm missing out on.Continued on the next page